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Song Drabbles

Title: Famous Last Words

Pairing: Brian/Justin QAF

Rating: NC-17

Disclaimer: I own neither the characters, the songs and I receive no cash for either.

A/N: I’ve wanted to just do some little drabbles that are loosely based on songs I love. Song lyrics are posted at the beginning. Please read if you get a chance and let me know what you think. Thanks.

 

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

 

-Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance

Justin watched as Brian walked across to the bedroom, shutting off lights as he went, shedding clothes as soon as he walked up the stairs.

In his 18 years, Justin had never seen someone as perfect as Brian Kinney looked at this moment. The blue light from the wall illumination lit his toned body perfectly and every edge of his body glistened in the dim light.

Justin licked his lips, feeling his gut tighten up, as it did every time he realized that he was really here, with Brian, about to share his body with him again. This wasn’t a dream, it was real.

Justin had tried to get up the nerve to tell Brian about Ethan again today, but the words had died in his throat. He just couldn’t do it.  He didn’t want to lose Brian, he was terrified of losing him, if he was being truthful. But he wasn’t willing to let Ethan go either. Ethan fulfilled so many needs and desires that Justin had, so many other dreams.

He reached for Brian as the older man got into bed, lifting his face to his for a kiss, waiting for his mind to be numbed by lovemaking.

Brian moved between Justin’s legs, grinding up against him as they’re mouths devoured each other. Justin’s fingers rolled a condom onto his cock as his eyes glazed over with lust. He wanted this badly.

Brian wondered at that. Was it because he was such a great lay that Justin was lying here now? Was it love? Or was he so scared to open his mouth about his extra-curricular love life that he was just going through the motions now?

“Brian….” Justin pleaded, arching his back and pressing his groin into Brian’s. His thick cock was leaking onto his stomach already.

Brian smiled slightly. Maybe Justin needed to be reminded why so many men wanted Brian for themselves, even if it was just for one night. His smile faded. Maybe he needed to figure out why Justin was the only one he wanted to have every night.

Sliding Justin’s legs over his biceps, he rose up, pushing Justin back, thrusting hard and deep. Justin’s breath hissed and his eyes closed. Brian ground into him, and then pulled out almost all the way before pushing back in hard.

“Harder…” Justin moaned, clutching at Brian’s upper arms, his head tossing side to side as Brian’s thrusts increased.

Their lovemaking was like a dance, a piece of choreographed art.

Their voices were music. Brian’s low growl, Justin’s moans, then his cries as he started to jerk against Brian’s body, shooting onto his stomach as Brian’s long fingers stroked him.

Then Brian moaned. “Ahh, fuck..” and Justin felt his body shaking as he came.

They collapsed into a heap on the bed together, slowly untangling themselves as they got their breath back. Justin traced a line on Brian’s shoulder as he lay on his side facing him.

“Say you love me, Brian. Say you want me, just me in your life. Tell me that I’m all you think about…” Justin begged in his head.

Aloud he whispered. “I love you, you know.”

 Brian lit a cigarette and stared at the ceiling in silence.

“I’m going to shower.” Justin said softly.

Brian still didn’t reply and Justin slowly slid out of bed and went into the bathroom. Soon the sound of water filtered in. Brian couldn’t hear it though. All he could hear was the terrified pounding of his heart.